God! Chairman...this is the Greatest!

there was a lead singer for Santana in the early days..the Abraxas days...big powerful very dark guy, impressively Black, strikingly powerful, powerful voice.

when I first saw that guy and heard him sing I was knocked out, stunned and captured. and so captured I was worried seriously for some years after that: was I homosexual?

that is what that guys brought home to me..that question..homosexuality! I was in all honestly attracted to that guy, captured by him. and if he was nearby and was so bent I would have had a real impossible time keep him at bay..if I could at all

I realized all that from that moment..I was attracted to man..real attraction. I was bothered, and bothered, and bothered. it tormented me..until I worked it. a man..heterosexual..can be attracted to another man and it does mean he is homosexual. it can happen for whatever reason but it does not mean much beyond the attraction.

I was slowly relieved, until I could let go of my fear fully. I did not want to move too fast lest I be wrong and caught up again.

relief! but I will never forget that guy. he soon stopped singing for Santana and disappeared. but he was great, terrific..a flashing star